Earlier today, I saw someone post on Facebook:
Imagine… now you have control over your beautiful , powerful mind…
This made me laugh, for a simple reason – I never have control over my mind. I never have!
My mind often feels like a runaway train going down a hill. It decides to go on a particular path, and just keeps going.
I can try to control it, make it do what I, or others, want it to do… but it never works.
Whenever I try to control it, I end up exhausted and burned out. I end up feeling like I’m no good and useless. Whatever I try to create ends up being, if I’m honest, not so great. This is where I put things off and find things don’t get done as my mind just says ‘nope, not doing that’.
Instead, whenever I catch hold of my mind and follow where it leads, amazing things happen.
Stories get written, kids get inspired to write, I discover amazing books and people, and I’m generally happier and healthier.
One of the things I wanted to do when I was diagnosed AuDHD was to learn how to work with my mind instead of trying to control it. I want to free my mind so that I can be authentically me, to create beautiful stories, to have a life that suits me.
My mind is beautiful and powerful, and doesn’t need to be controlled. In fact, it’s much better when I don’t control it. When I can follow that runaway train and let it take me on the most amazing, spectacular adventures.
So, instead of imagining that I’m in control of my mind, I’m going to set it free and see where it leads me.
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